All This Craziness…

I am coming up on week three of being out of work…can we say stir crazy?  After enduring every test in the book including three MRI’s, a million blood tests, ultrasounds…basically you name it.  Tomorrow, I will head to the ENT for some crazy physical therapy procedures that may or may not work.  Pretty much, I am done!  The constant vertigo and nausea is just awful.  Sorry if this is not so interesting to my regular readers, but I just needed to get it all out. 

I can’t even begin to tell you how loved I have felt through all of this.  My friends and family have held my hand and supported me with prayers while I just struggled to keep myself together.  I truly hope life is going to return to normal soon. 

On the other hand, I kind of feel like God has been spring cleaning my life.  It has been easy to let people go who add stress to my life and basically offer me a one sided friendship, or claim to offer love and have no idea of the actual concept of love.  I guess we all have to grow up sometime.  This weekend, my two bestests are making the trek up from DC to just keep me company on my mushy basement couches, watch chick flicks and partake in my cooking.  It is such a wonderful thing to realize that genuine love exists in people  and in the world.  You know that one person you can text anytime and they always respond.  Or  that person you can call and they never hit the ignore button.  Or that person that loves you no matter how screwed up and mixed up you are.  I really hope that the people in my life can say that I love them the way they have made me feel loved over the last 3 months. 

Aside from the amazing people in my life, I’m learning to enjoy the small things.  I watched the movie “Last Holiday” yesterday and Queen Latifah’s character was starting up at a gorgeous ceiling.  She said, “has that ceiling ever made you just want to cry.”  I sort of feel that way about a lot of things these days.  My little nephew has been super sick and just seeing his little, perfect smile look up at me made me cry.  His little voice saying I love you is pretty much the most perfect moment ever.  We only get one time around at this crazy thing called life and sometimes we just forget to stop and see our life happening each day.  Wow, I really do sound like a huge dork.  I guess I was just hoping to share all the wonderful blessings God has given me during the horrible struggle in my life.  Feel free to share the little gifts you have in your life right now!